Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Happy Anniversary Scott

So, to my sweet husband, a few things I need you to know.
 I need you to know that I'm sorry.  I'm sorry for all of the times I spent being a Mom and even a special needs Mom. I'm sorry for all the days, weeks and even years that I didn't invest alot of time into us. I'm sorry that I set our relationship to the side while I figured out how to care for our girls and find my way taking care of Noah too.
After all this time, I need to know that you remember me. Not this person who feels overwhelmed. I need to know that you look past the tired  eyes  and frazzled hair and see the girl you fell for so many yers ago.
 There are days when I look in the mirror and I  can't see her anymore. I need you to remind me that when you look at me, you haven't forgotten that girl you fell in love with. She is still in there somewhere. Remind me that I'm beautiful- even if I don't believe you right away.

We used to laugh a lot. Didn't we? Sure, there is laughter now, but I know the stress of being special needs parents has mad us a little less care-free. This last weekend was a great time to start investing in our relationship again and be care-free even for just a few hours.There will always be our little Noah to take care of but I still want to find the time for us on a regular basis.
I need you to call me by name- or sweetheart or honey or any of the other precious words that show me that you care. Take my face in your hands and make me feel like the special person in your life.
And if I haven't said it in a while, I love you. No, I really Love You. Not like I say when we're getting off the phone, you're rushing out the door for work. I really do Love You.
 I am proud to say that you are my husband. I am proud of the man that you are and the father that you have become. I don't tell you enough how much I appreciate all that you do for us. Thank you for hard work, your dedication and your patience. You are so important to me- and I'm going to do my best to remind you just how much I love being your wife.
Most of all you need to know that I will do all that I can to keep these words fresh in my heart.... because I realize before I was a Mom, I was yours, and I never want to forget that.
Happy Anniversary Scott, You are well loved.

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