A Trip To The Barn

Today we were invited to go with Noah's class to see the animals at Agriculture Barn at the Shelby High School

Noah enjoyed getting kissed by a cow.

It was a beautiful day to enjoy the outdoors. Can't believe there is only 16 school days left. Where has the year gone?

Thanks Miss Zak for allowing us to tag along to see the animals. We had a great time.

Hard Work Is Paying Off

The last couple of months I've really have noticed how much Noah's back looks different. I'll try to get a picture of it soon, so you can see for yourselves. Until then check out what Noah can do now!!!! He can't do this for long but he sure looks good doing what he can.

Sometimes It's Really Hard

Sometimes it's really hard not to think about what Noah would be like if he was born without his disability. Most days I feel very blessed to have Noah just the way he is. There are other days like recently, that I wonder what he would be like or who his friends would have been. Noah is 17 years old and would be a junior in high school. I can only imagine what things he would be interested in or enjoy doing. Recently I got on a committee with other high school junior parents that are planning the after prom. I did this to get myself out of the house and also so that the other parents and his peers would come to realize that Noah is a part of them. Even though he is small for his age and can't walk or talk he is still part of them.This is what got me thinking about what Noah would be like without his disability. What group of friends would he be going to the prom with and more importantly who would be his date. I thought about asking someone to go with him but I didn't want him to be a burden to the person he went with. I so want him to really feel like someone his age but that is so hard sometimes. My heart aches for him. I truly believe that Noah understands everything   around him and I want him to be able to experience life just like any other teenager and not miss out on anything just because he has a disability.

Noah, you mean the world to me and I love you just the way you are.

Happy Anniversary Scott

So, to my sweet husband, a few things I need you to know.
 I need you to know that I'm sorry.  I'm sorry for all of the times I spent being a Mom and even a special needs Mom. I'm sorry for all the days, weeks and even years that I didn't invest alot of time into us. I'm sorry that I set our relationship to the side while I figured out how to care for our girls and find my way taking care of Noah too.
After all this time, I need to know that you remember me. Not this person who feels overwhelmed. I need to know that you look past the tired  eyes  and frazzled hair and see the girl you fell for so many yers ago.
 There are days when I look in the mirror and I  can't see her anymore. I need you to remind me that when you look at me, you haven't forgotten that girl you fell in love with. She is still in there somewhere. Remind me that I'm beautiful- even if I don't believe you right away.

We used to laugh a lot. Didn't we? Sure, there is laughter now, but I know the stress of being special needs parents has mad us a little less care-free. This last weekend was a great time to start investing in our relationship again and be care-free even for just a few hours.There will always be our little Noah to take care of but I still want to find the time for us on a regular basis.
I need you to call me by name- or sweetheart or honey or any of the other precious words that show me that you care. Take my face in your hands and make me feel like the special person in your life.
And if I haven't said it in a while, I love you. No, I really Love You. Not like I say when we're getting off the phone, you're rushing out the door for work. I really do Love You.
 I am proud to say that you are my husband. I am proud of the man that you are and the father that you have become. I don't tell you enough how much I appreciate all that you do for us. Thank you for hard work, your dedication and your patience. You are so important to me- and I'm going to do my best to remind you just how much I love being your wife.
Most of all you need to know that I will do all that I can to keep these words fresh in my heart.... because I realize before I was a Mom, I was yours, and I never want to forget that.
Happy Anniversary Scott, You are well loved.

Spring Zoo Trip 2015

Everyone was on spring break so we decided to go to the zoo.

It started out pretty cold but by lunch time it was feeling much better.

This was Noah's first trip to the zoo with his new ear. He was bit under the weather but he still enjoyed listening to all the new sounds.

Our little tour guide enjoyed a ride on the train.

Looking forward to the summer and more trips to the zoo.